STEP 2: Came to believe that a Power greater than our own ego and willpower could bring us to a place of freedom, happiness, wellbeing and love.

In the first step we brought to light our past ways of thinking and being that had brought us to a place of unhappiness and dissatisfaction. We revisited our past and realized its effect on us. We took our first step toward living an “examined life”. Now we are ready to move forward.

However, we cannot move forward through individual will and ego-driven self-determination. This is what we have BEEN doing and it obviously hasn’t been working all that well or we would not be at this point. Our own personal power is not enough to heal what needs to be healed.

We cannot heal our relationship to ourselves, others and the world around us through our own devices. We have tried and failed in varying degrees. We need to open ourselves to a power GREATER than our individual ego. In order for us to do that, we must first BELIEVE that such a power can and does exist, and that it can provide for us what we need at any given point.

Now I know that I spend a lot of time harping on beliefs and belief systems here, so let me take a moment to differentiate between beliefs and believing. A BELIEF is a noun- it is a THING. Beliefs are formed when the imagination and other creative principles of one’s consciousness are now longer free-flowing around an idea, but rather they become set and calcified; rigid and immovable. Set beliefs are much like a bone that has become old and stiff- causing one great discomfort when stressed and unimaginable pain when broken.

Believing on the other hand is a verb- an active principle. Believing is the life of the imagination which brings the world of men into existence. Nothing in this world can be can be made or achieved if one does not first BELIEVE these things are possible. We believe in the creative potential of ourselves and others as well as the creative potential of the universe around us.

So in Step 2, we BELIEVE that a power greater than ourselves can bring us to that place of freedom, happiness, wellbeing and love that we want and need. In the traditional 12 Steps, Step 2 reads that we “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity”. This gives credence to the “crazy-making” cyclical behaviors of the addict. However, you could argue that everyone has their own crazy-making cyclical behavior patterns, even if they are not as extreme as that of the true addict.

In order for us to take this second step, we need to be able to first IMAGINE that a Power greater than ourselves exists. This concept can be challenging for people for a variety of reasons. Many people in our “scientific” secular society are agnostic or even atheistic and have a hard time believing in the concept of “God” or a “Higher Power”. Others can be the opposite and have extensive religious beliefs about hierarchies, sin and shame that can actually get in the way of developing that personal relationship and closeness that is necessary.

step 2 confusion

There is also what could be described as the “New Age” misinterpretation that we ourselves ARE God the Creator Him/Herself. The Hermetic teachings speak wonderfully to this common mistake. Yes, the ALL (God) is in ALL things and all things exist within the ALL or the “One”. And yes, we ARE individuated expressions of this ONE Being, and so we too have that Divine potentiality innate within us. In Genesis it states that “God made man in his likeness”.

However, while we are indeed expressions of God, and we exist as creations in the Mind of God, WE OURSELVES ARE NOT GOD- we are at our highest potential gods with a “little g”, but we are not God with a “capital G”. This is part of what is known as the Divine Paradox.

A great way of illustrating this concept is that of a fiction writer and the characters he/she creates. While each character is unique, it will still have a little bit of its creator’s own personality and temperament in it somewhere. This is inevitable as the character emanates from the mind of the writer. The writer’s characters are the expression of the writer’s unique personality, character traits and interpretation of the world around him/her. It is the same way with us and God. We are each unique characters carefully developed and given life by the Grand Playwright, and each having our own unique bit of that Playwright within us.

The reason I went into all that is because if one comes at this Step Work with this notion that “I AM God”, it will probably be really hard to imagine any sort of Power greater than ourselves to help and guide us through this process. This outlook makes it very hard to move past the ego which absolutely LOVES the concept of being the supreme Creator of the Universe.

There are as many spiritual paths as there are people in the world. Nature, Energy, the Universe, Consciousness- these are ALL things that can be seen as a “Power greater than ourselves” and can be used by those who find the term “God”, or the other variations on that word uncomfortable or unpalatable. Opening ourselves to the concept of that “greater Power” allows us to ask for and receive help in our time of need. This requires us to humble ourselves and begin to put our egos to the side somewhat.

First find what works for you and resonates with you and your temperament. Be open and flexible- a relationship with a Higher Power is a fluid and progressive relationship. Second, look for people who are truly living and embodying moral and spiritual principles in their daily lives. Reach out to them if possible and see if you can incorporate anything that they are doing into your daily life.

Anyone who has done Reiki or any sort of energetic healing work will tell you that they themselves are not doing the healing- they simply open themselves to and allow that healing energy to flow through them. They BELIEVE in that higher energy’s capabilities and have FAITH that it knows what to do. THAT is what we are doing here. We are moving our own ego-based desire to be “in control” of things out of the way and letting that initial possibility of that Healing Energy begin to manifest in our minds and in our lives.


The Microcosmic Orbit meditation has its origins in Taoist Chi Kung and Spiritual/Energetic alchemy. The version of which is a simplified version done for the purpose of moving our mind “out of the way” and feeling that “Higher Energy” flow through us. Personally, I typically do this meditation process 7 times before beginning Communion:

1. Sit at the edge of a chair with your spine straight, head slightly tilted, with your tongue lightly touching the roof of your mouth. Close your eyes.

2. Fold your hands, palms up, in your lap- left over right for men, right over left for women. Breathe deeply from your belly. Observe the breath; let the thoughts drift away. Keep as still as possible.

3. Envision in your mind’s eye a golden ball of light, like a miniature sun, hovering just above your head. Feel its warmth radiating down on you.

4. Now envision a smaller ball of light slowly descending down from this “sun”. Prepare yourself to take a long, deep inhalation.

5. As you breathe in, envision this ball of light, descending into your skull, illuminating the energy center in the front of your head.

6. Continue the in-breath, and envision the ball of light moving down the front of your body and illuminating your heart center.

7. Continue breathing in, and envision the ball of light moving further down the front part of your body and illuminating the energy center just below your navel, aka the Tan Tien.

8. Envision the ball of light moving down to your perineum- the middle bottom portion of your torso between the buttocks and genitalia. Let the ball rest there for a moment while you put your attention in physically holding this light in that area.

9. Exhale, envisioning the ball of light slowly moving up the spine in a similar fashion to the way it moved down until it returns to the “sun” above the head it came from.

10. Repeat this process as many times as you are comfortable- the more repetitions, the more you will feel the circulation of energy.


If you need to modify the in-breath to make in through the full movement of energy, do so. I would use a modified sipping breath, moving the ball of light down the front of me. The process itself does not take very long once you get into it. Below I have attached further reading on this meditation as well as Taoist Alchemy. Have fun with it! Until next time, Namaste and God Bless.

Microcosmic_Orbit-Earth_Balance_Tai_Chi <PDF Doc.

Awaken Healing Light <PDF Doc.



“It is simply no longer possible to believe much of the clinical research that is published, or to rely on the judgment of trusted physicians or authoritative medical guidelines. I take no pleasure in this conclusion, which I reached slowly and reluctantly over my two decades as an editor of The New England Journal of Medicine.”
– Marcia Angell, M.D., F.A.C.P.- First female editor-in-chief of NEJM and one of Time Magazine’s 25 most influential Americans of 1997

Before I conclude with this extensive posting, a couple new things have happened since I began writing. First, Dr. William Thompson, the whistleblower at the CDC I discussed at length in part one, has apparently been given “immunity” (funny play on words, huh?) to testify before congress. One should keep in mind a couple things before going forward: first of all, Dr. Thompson STILL WORKS at the CDC, so obviously some sort of agreement was made after word of this all came out so he could keep his job.

Secondly, this will be the government investigating itself, and if you don’t think any of the members of congress have taken some “campaign contributions” from Merck or any other pharmaceutical company invested in maintaining the image of safety and legitimacy around vaccines, then I have a bridge I’ll sell you… it’s on the Moon.

The second new development is out of Washington State and is the introduction of legislation (Senate Bill 5822) which would allow pharmacists to order and administer ALL vaccines. Currently only the flu shot is given, so passage of this legislation (and the inevitable copycat bills that will pop up in other states) would expand the vaccine market EXPONENTIALLY. This would be a HUGE victory for the vaccine industry.

That being said, I want to reflect on all of this. Obviously I am passionate about this issue or I would not have spent the amount of hours it has taken to research this data and attempt to lay it all out in a coherent manner. I understand the importance of keeping the body- the physical expression of the spirit and soul- free of disease and toxic chemicals. Vaccination is at its best a weak substitute for building natural immunity, and at its worst a crippling and deadly mistake.

The litanies of chemicals that are used as “preservatives” in every vaccine administered to the GENERAL PUBLIC are degenerative neurotoxins whose effects sometimes onset quickly, but very often materialize slowly and are amplified by other synthetic chemicals that are introduced into the body. This will be the first generation that won’t outlive its parents and it’s not just due to obesity.


Instinctively people know something is wrong. Why are we getting more and more drugs prescribed to us and our children, while at the same time we are watching people getting sicker and sicker with new and exotic forms of “degenerative disease”- diseases not created by these ages-old viruses we are all terrified of? We instinctively know that pharmaceuticals and expensive procedures do NOT equate with better heath, wellbeing, and vitality, but something seems to be guiding us away from what is natural and instinctual.

Through the use of our trust in those people we have given the role of our protectors and trusted wise men and women, commercial entities with self-serving purpose and no real moral, ethical or social conscience that trumps the responsibility of maximum shareholder returns have distorted how we see health and wellness. Our view of health has ultimately become what will inevitably benefit the longevity of the corporation. You can eat all the fruits, veggies and whole grains the Food Pyramid tells you, but if your body breaks down through continued usage of toxic synthetic pharmaceuticals, IT WILL NOT MATTER.


So here’s the bottom line: we have an increasing number of “scheduled” vaccines that are full of toxins that are known to cause degenerative conditions typically in a sort of “time-released” manner. These vaccines are given at an early age. We then have all of these health issues in more and more children (many of which are listed in the vaccine inserts), who when taken to a doctor who was educated by the drug company textbooks, and are prescribed an array of pharmaceuticals that are also made by the manufacturers of the vaccines. These pharmaceuticals cause other degenerative issues, so they have to go back to the doctor who just give more vaccines and prescribes more drugs. Eventually their body degenerates to the point of being told they need expensive procedures, then more vaccines, then more drugs, then more side-effects, then more procedures, and so on until they’re broke and dead.

On an ethical level, the above scenario is MONSTROUS. However, if you are a business that wants to create customers for life, than it is ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT. Pharmaceutical companies aren’t interested in creating cures, they need to create CUSTOMERS. That’s the real “hustle” here and that’s why we need to move as far away from these pharmaceutical companies, their products, and their often unwitting agents as we possibly can. Modern “heroic” medicine, while absolutely phenomenal at saving lives in emergency situations is an abject FAILURE in the realm of degenerative disease, and will continue to be so as long as it continues to align itself with the “disease manufacturer” itself.

This blog is ultimately about alchemy, so I will conclude on this topic in that perspective. Alchemy is the purification of the human being through understanding and skillful use of the Laws of Nature and Creation. Use of vaccines; despite the deafening claims of all the “high priests” of modern medical “science” and all of their media scribes and cult following; runs counter to the laws of nature. Vaccines pollute the body of the human being with a litany of synthetic toxins that interfere with the chemical and electrical workings of the body necessary for full integration of Mind, Body and Spirit.

The word “sin” is derived from a Greek archery term which means to “miss the mark”; to error. When we attempt to subvert and do an “end run” around the Laws of Nature and Creation, we miss the mark. It could be argued that since alchemy is, in one definition, the use of chemical and mineral compounds for the process of “transforming” the human being, then vaccination is a form of alchemy.

However, in traditional alchemy, certain processes are undertaken to capture the natural and vital life essence of the elements. Vaccination involves injecting diseased matter (live or dead) and synthetic (a false imitation of a natural substance) compounds into the human body. I would suggest that this process is alchemy of a dark kind- the kind that goes against the Laws of Nature and the Principle of Life.


Viruses in and of themselves are not “evil” and are a part of nature, whether we like it or not. Our attempt to “eradicate” a part of Nature, regardless of whether or not we are capable of understanding is extremely misguided. Humanity’s obsessive fear of death and these “invisible” killers works only in our own detriment. The fact that we say we want to destroy these viruses and then create new ones in labs is also a bit laughable. All we need to do is align ourselves with Nature and use her Nature’s tools to thrive. We don’t need to eradicate anything.

Western society has a very morbid terror and obsession with our concept of death and what we THINK it is. We fear death because we do not fully understand life. We do not understand Nature so we attempt to control it. This all leads to our own suffering and the suffering of our children and the suffering of those animals sentenced to be tortured and killed “for the greater good”. The greater good is a meaningless concept for those who don’t understand the Truth of Life- the fact that we ARE eternal. This has been known since time immemorial, but we have forgotten. Even many those who say they “believe” fail to know in their hearts.

Ultimately, it is up to the individual to decide what they feel is best for him or her. All I am saying is that if your goal is internal purification; having your mind and body resonate with the spirit, then injecting diseased matter and synthetic neurotoxins into your body probably isn’t a good idea. I’m also saying if you’re really concerned with your children getting disease, you probably don’t want to inject them full of chemicals that CAUSE disease.

horrible monster vaccination

People are scared right now, and fear completely constricts the mind and heart, causing one to seek quick and immediate, and often very rash “solutions”. Fear will ultimately make one more willing to abdicate their own personal power and responsibility to the “higher authority” who promises they can save them and those they love. It is also hard for people to admit that decisions they made and things they believed were wrong- especially if being wrong may have caused them to unknowingly harm their children.

Moving out of fear can be hard; especially when fear becomes a way of life. Admitting we were wrong can be hard; especially when we have never known things to be done any other way or have been told by people we trust that to go against their will could cause harm to those we love. However, when we discover who we truly are; when we understand how the Laws of Nature and Creation work; when we understand the Truth of the Principles of Light, Life and Love- then, and only then, can we move forward on the path toward true wellbeing and freedom from “dis-ease”.

I encourage folks to revisit the second part of my posting on “Rethinking Flu Shot Season” for tips on boosting immunity NATURALLY, and until next time, Namaste and God Bless.


measles alert

“(Immunization) technology was never meant to be injected into the body. Your immune system doesn’t work that way. The way your immune system works is you breathe (the pathogen) in (or digest it) and then the way that your receptors react with your white blood cells and your neutrophils- they react with an antigen to develop an antibody… When you shoot anything inside you via needle; nothing like that ever happens in nature, so your immune system freaks out. It causes an immune response and it’s harder for your body to develop an antibody.”
– Dr. Edward Group- founder of Global Healing Center

“My daughter got measles after she was vaccinated. That’s why everybody needs to get vaccinated.”
– Concerned Parent from Alaska

This measles scare is NOT a public health emergency, this is NOT science, this is NOT medicine- this IS business marketing, advertising and PR. This is creating an artificial demand for a product and advertising it with the boldest and most outlandish marketing slogan that anyone has ever had the grapefruits to come up with:


Seriously, when you put this into perspective, one can’t help but laugh about how brazenly over-the-top this whole thing is. Let’s look at the numbers: there are approximately 319 million people in the United States and right now, according to the media anyhow, 121 of them have measles. That is a fraction of a percent- and out of the “sharp rise” in measles outbreaks in the past 10 years in the United States because of “anti-vaxxers” do you know how many have died? Zero- zero people have died from the measles in the United States. But you might… just like you might die from the flu, or a cold, or driving in a car, or walking down the street… you MIGHT die… but you probably won’t, and your kids probably won’t either.

Of course, many will say, “Well you and your kids should just get the vaccine anyways: better safe than sorry right?”

Then there’s my favorite, “The risks of not being vaccinated FAR outweigh any risk from the vaccination shot itself.”

That being said, let’s take a look at the insert from Merck’s MMR II vaccine:

“The following adverse reactions are listed in decreasing order of severity, without regard to causality, within each body system category and have been reported during clinical trials, with use of the marketed vaccine, or with use of monovalent or bivalent vaccine containing measles, mumps, or rubella:
Body as a Whole:
Panniculitis; atypical measles; fever; syncope; headache; dizziness; malaise; irritability.
Cardiovascular System:
Digestive System:
Pancreatitis; diarrhea; vomiting; parotitis; nausea.
Endocrine System:
Diabetes mellitus.
Hemic and Lymphatic System:
Thrombocytopenia (see WARNINGS, Thrombocytopenia); purpura; regional lymphadenopathy; leukocytosis.
Immune System:
Anaphylaxis and anaphylactoid reactions have been reported as well as related phenomena such as angioneurotic edema (including peripheral or facial edema) and bronchial spasm in individuals with or without an allergic history.
Musculoskeletal System:
Arthritis; arthralgia; myalgia. Arthralgia and/or arthritis (usually transient and rarely chronic), and polyneuritis are features of infection with wild-type rubella and vary in frequency and severity with age and sex, being greatest in adult females and least in prepubertal children. This type of involvement as well as myalgia and paresthesia, have also been reported following administration of MERUVAX II.
Chronic arthritis has been associated with wild-type rubella infection and has been related to persistent virus and/or viral antigen isolated from body tissues. Only rarely have vaccine recipients developed chronic joint symptoms.
Following vaccination in children, reactions in joints are uncommon and generally of brief duration. In women, incidence rates for arthritis and arthralgia are generally higher than those seen in children (children: 0-3%; women: 12-26%),{17,56,57} and the reactions tend to be more marked and of longer duration. Symptoms may persist for a matter of months or on rare occasions for years. In adolescent girls, the reactions appear to be intermediate in incidence between those seen in children and in adult women. Even in women older than 35 years, these reactions are generally well tolerated and rarely interfere with normal activities.
Nervous System:
Encephalitis; encephalopathy; measles inclusion body encephalitis (MIBE) subacute sclerosing panencephalitis (SSPE); Guillain-Barré Syndrome (GBS); acute disseminated encephalomyelitis (ADEM); transverse myelitis; febrile convulsions; afebrile convulsions or seizures; ataxia; polyneuritis; polyneuropathy; ocular palsies; paresthesia.
Respiratory System :
Pneumonia; pneumonitis (see CONTRAINDICATIONS); sore throat; cough; rhinitis.
Stevens-Johnson syndrome; erythema multiforme; urticaria; rash; measles-like rash; pruritis. Local reactions including burning/stinging at injection site; wheal and flare; redness (erythema); swelling; induration; tenderness; vesiculation at injection site.
Special Senses — Ear:
Nerve deafness; otitis media.
Special Senses — Eye:
Retinitis; optic neuritis; papillitis; retrobulbar neuritis; conjunctivitis.
Urogenital System:
Epididymitis; orchitis.
Death from various, and in some cases unknown, causes has been reported rarely following vaccination with measles, mumps, and rubella vaccines”


I’m sure getting measles is a lot worse than any of those things. Wait, the insert said you could contract measles as well, as this is a LIVE VIRUS vaccine, which means that “patient zero” at Disneyland very well could have been someone who was recently vaccinated. Various studies have shown that children given a live virus vaccination can infect others and shed the disease for weeks or even months afterwards.


In a study published in the “Journal of Clinical Microbiology” by the CDC nearly two decades ago detailed how urine samples were collected from newly vaccinated 15-month-old infants as well as young adults and that NEARLY ALL OF THEM had detectable levels of the measles virus inside their bodies, meaning they were potentially contagious. You may remember the measles outbreak in New York City back in 2011. It turned out that “patient zero” in that case was a twice-vaccinated individual who was found to have spread the measles in that instance.




Starting with the smallpox vaccine in the 19th century, vaccination has a history of spreading the disease it is supposedly trying to eliminate. An article in the Washington Post around an FDA report regarding the pertussis vaccine disclosed the following:

“The research suggests that while the vaccine may keep people from getting sick, it doesn’t prevent them from spreading whooping cough — also known as pertussis — to others… It could explain the increase in pertussis that we’re seeing in the US,’ said one of the researchers, Tod Merkel of the Food and Drug Administration…”

A report published by the Council on Foreign Relations, a foreign policy think-tank involving various heads of state and business stated: “that the most highly vaccinated populations are also those with the greatest number of outbreaks for those same infectious diseases. This was especially the case for measles, mumps, rubella, polio and pertussis outbreaks.”

The Office of Medical and Scientific Justice- a science and medical fraud investigation organization out of California had the following conclusion regarding the CFR report:

“the repeated incidences of infectious outbreaks in populations with 94% or more vaccine compliance [the alleged threshold when herd immunity is activated], and the emergence of new viral strains, the concept of herd immunity should be forgotten… The Office offers several possibilities to explain the report: 1) vaccines are increasingly becoming ineffective and causing ‘immune dysfunction,’ and 2) ‘vaccine antigen responses’ may be reprogramming viruses while weakening the immune systems of the most vaccinated individuals.”

Wait what about Dr. William Shaffner’s (a paid consultant for Merck and Co.) comment in the Web MD article I have been continuous quoting stating that “All of get vaccinated” and provide “herd immunity”? I thought herd immunity was a scientific fact? Well the thing is that the original concept of herd immunity never had anything to do with vaccines or vaccination.

Neurosurgeon Dr. Russell Blaylock had the following to say regarding vaccine-based immunity:

“naturally-acquired immunity lasts for a lifetime. The vaccine proponents quickly latched onto this concept and applied it to vaccine-induced immunity. But, there was one major problem – vaccine-induced immunity lasted for only a relatively short period, from 2 to 10 years at most, and then this applies only to humoral immunity…the baby boomers, have had no vaccine-induced immunity against any of these diseases for which they had been vaccinated very early in life. In essence, at least 50% or more of the population was unprotected for decades.”

herd immunity


Holland < PDF Doc from OR Law Review Questioning Herd Immunity Theory

In 1933 researcher A.W. Hedrich coined the phrase when studying measles patterns in the United States between 1900 and 1931. Hedrich observed that mass outbreaks of the measles occurred only when less than 68% of the children had developed a natural immunity to it. This was based upon children building their immunity through NATURAL exposure to the disease in some manner, by either being around someone who had it or contracting it themselves. Like chicken pox when I was a kid (they vaccinate for that now too), you got it, it kinda sucked for a few days, but then you didn’t get it again, and unless you were already on death’s door, you probably weren’t gonna die.

This was done about 30 years before the first measles vaccine was developed. In fact, the rate of measles infections was already plummeting about ten years before that vaccine was released in 1963. This drop in measles outbreaks occurred as the United States became the richest nation on the face of the Earth. It is well known that increased living standards (hygiene, sanitation, general nutrition) result in a decrease of infectious that are known to plague poor populations in underdeveloped countries. This is why outbreaks of the measles dropped in the manner they did a decade before a vaccine even existed.



A wonderful example of this came out of Leicester, England between the years of 1885 and 1887. Many may be familiar with the legend Edward Jenner and his legendary discovery of vaccination technology. However, fewer may be familiar with the fact that he was seen as a money-hungry quack by his peers until he was able to impress upon “mad” King George III the wondrous possibility of vaccines. This led to a massive financial investment in Jenner in this new “technology”. After that point a series of mandatory vaccination mandates were given, despite the fact that outbreaks of smallpox were continually being linked to the vaccinations. There was a public backlash and a number of “anti-vaxxers” were refusing to get inoculated. Author Roman Bystrianyk and Dr. Susan Humphries describe the following scenario:

“The public backlash culminated in the great demonstration in Leicester England, in 1885. That same year Leicester’s government, which had pushed f or vaccination through the use of fines and jail time, was replaced with a new government that was opposed to compulsory vaccination. By 1887, the vaccination coverage rates had dropped to 10%.

Instead of relying on vaccination, people began to rely on proper sanitation, quarantine of smallpox patients and thorough disinfection of their homes. They believed this technique was a cheap and effective means that eliminated the need for vaccination. However, there were dire predictions from the majority of the medical community that strongly endorsed vaccination and believed the low vaccination rate would result in a terrible “massacre,” especially in the “unprotected” children.

Despite such prophesies of doom from the medical profession, the majority of the town’s residents were steadfast in their belief that vaccination was not necessary to control smallpox. The prophecy that the Leicester residents would eventually be plagued with disaster never did come to pass. Low vaccination rates resulted in lower smallpox rates and deaths, than in well-vaccinated towns. In fact, the lower vaccination rates correlated to an overall decrease in smallpox deaths. Leicester showed that by abandoning vaccination in favor of what became termed as the “Leicester Method,” deaths from smallpox were far lower than when vaccination rates were high.”

Vaccination_A_Mythical_History_Roman_Bystrianyk_Suzanne_Humphries_MD <PDF

Jenner-history < PDF Document About “Dr.” Edward Jenner


This paints a considerably different picture than the rather simplistic, “folk tale” view of history we tend to be given. This is why it is important to get rid of our “folk tale” history and our dogmatic beliefs. We can see from the Leicester event back in the late 1800s that this vaccine faithful vs “anti-vaxxers” situation has happened before. We can also see by examining history with a keen eye for the fine points that the story of vaccination as the great savior of humanity from the scourge of disease is a myth- no, a FAIRY TALE that is perpetuated for profit and control.

Edward Jenner Bill Gates Fine Art

So if the above data is true, then how does this “church of vaccination” remain its near god-like authority and sway over people? Why do we treat our children as “little pincushions” as the WebMD article describes? One of the main reasons is because the general public is largely unaware of the role money plays in science. Historically though, from Jenner’s ties to King George and the British Government in the 19th century to Merck, the CDC and today’s medical establishment, money and power ALWAYS plays a role in what is seen as “true and legitimate thought” and what is not.

We are taught that science is this pure, unbiased and incorruptible institution. That is sadly far from the truth. The simple fact of the matter is that scientists and scientific research ALWAYS need funding; i.e. money. Those who are funding research on pharmaceuticals are quite often the manufacturers who more often than not have a predetermined result in mind that is in sync with their bottom line of progressively increasing profits. Data can be and very often is skewed and manipulated to meet a desired result. This holds especially true in a nation where the petrochemical industry- progenitor of the pharmaceutical industry- has had such immense influence and power for such a long time.


That is the real reason why there are no studies comparing the health of vaccinated and unvaccinated children in this country. Not because it is “unethical” to not vaccinate children, which is the common answer given. Dr. Sears (another favorite target of the vaccine industry) aside, scientific studies in Germany and New Zealand have both shown that vaccinated children have up to five times higher rates of various degenerative diseases ranging from asthma and allergies, to eczema and diabetes. In a nutshell, unvaccinated children tend to be HEALTHIER than vaccinated children. But I suppose that to have truly healthy children and a truly healthy society would be “unethical” and downright bad for business.



Again, I realize much of this defies what is propagated in main stream scientific thought, so to that I leave with this thought:

Science and scientific language is just that- a language.  When one is familiar and skilled enough with a language, you can use it to either speak bold truth or concoct the most elaborate fictions.



“Harvard, with its well-publicized medical school, has received $8,764,433 of Rockefeller’s Drug Trust money; Yale got $7,927,800; Johns Hopkins $10,418,531; Washington University in St. Louis $2,842,132; New York’s Columbia University $5,424,371; Cornell University $1,709,072, etc., etc.,”
– Morris A. Bealle, investigative journalist, and former Washington Times editor.


According to the previously mentioned WebMD article, “Should Vaccination Be a Personal Choice?” the “scary new research” that linked the MMR vaccine to autism “has since been discredited”. They are of course referring to Dr. Andrew Wakefield out of the U.K. who, if one was to listen to the mainstream press, would think was the only person to ever do any sort of research finding such correlations.

This is very much a falsehood, but keeping things overly simplistic makes it easier to make it look like the opposition is a small isolated minority of “cooks”. On a side note, the article “discrediting” Wakefield has been proven to be fraudulent in its claims, and Dr. Wakefield is suing the individuals involved for things like liable and slander. And if you weren’t sure, Merck was the company creating the MMR vaccines in the U.K. as well.

As a matter of fact in early 2005, the Los Angeles Times obtained a memo from Merck and Co. where senior executives were concerned with mercury levels in their vaccines. The memo was authored in 1991 and revealed concerns of 6-month-old children getting dosages of mercury that were 87 times greater than what were considered safe doses. According to Dr. Maurice Hilleman in a memo to the president of the company’s vaccine division:

“When viewed in this way, the mercury load appears rather large.”



However the mercury was not removed until nearly two decades later. However, the mercury is gone from the MMR shot (it’s still in many brands of the flu shot), so what’s the problem with these “anti-vaxxers” now? One only need read the insert document that accompanies the MMR vaccine and read the potential side effects to understand. These potential side effects include: diarrhea, vomiting, anaphylactic shock, diabetes, pancreatitis (which can lead to a HOST of other issues later down the road), measles-like rash, and atypical measles.


But according to Dr. Paul Offit; another “expert” quoted extensively in the WebMD article “Should Vaccination Be a Personal Choice”; there is nothing to worry about in regards to the increasingly intensive vaccine schedule for children, which has risen dramatically in the last 30 years to 49 doses of 14 different vaccines by the age of 6. According to Offit, “You certainly don’t overwhelm the immune system by giving vaccines when recommended, and there’s everything to be lost… If you add up all the immunological components of vaccines today… It’s nothing… it’s literally a drop in the ocean of what you encounter and manage every day…”


However, what Offit is referring to is naturally occurring bacteria that bombard the human immune system on a daily basis, NOT synthetic chemicals injected into a human child. However, Offit is right when saying there is “everything to be lost”, as he has had a close relationship with Merck and Co. for many years. Offit has served as a paid consultant and was one of the creators of Merck’s RotaTeq rotavirus vaccine. Offit’s royalties from the sale of this vaccine are estimated between 29 and 50 million dollars.

comment51 < PDF Documentation Referencing Paul Offit’s Conflicts Of Interest

Paul-Offit-1306181 < PDF Documentation Referencing Paul Offit’s Conflicts Of Interest

FishervOffit1 < PDF Documentation Referencing Paul Offit’s Conflicts Of Interest

This brings to mind the quote from former editor-in-chief of “The New England Journal of Medicine”, Dr. Marcia Angell:

“It is simply no longer possible to believe much of the clinical research that is published, or to rely on the judgment of trusted physicians or authoritative medical guidelines. I take no pleasure in this conclusion, which I reached slowly and reluctantly over my two decades as an editor of The New England Journal of Medicine.”

However, the problem here lies with not just a few vocal “experts” with conflicts of interest. The problem goes much deeper than that. If you recall, I stated earlier that the “Merck Manual of Diagnosis and Therapy” is the BEST-SELLING medical textbook IN THE WORLD. When a for-profit pharmaceutical company is publishing the most widely used textbook for the “education” of healthcare professionals in the world, then a GLARING conflict of interest will inevitably exist in the medical professional as a whole.

The main driver of any publicly traded corporation is by its nature going to be PROFIT. Therefore, any venture it is going to spend capital to undertake will be one designed to insure maximum profit for the company and the business as a whole. A pharmaceutical company publishing a medical textbook is about creating and ensuring a long-term market. Therefore the information the company would be disseminating would logically be geared toward maintaining and increasing profit and consumer base. That’s simple business logic.

Merck Manual- Century of Med Publishing

This is why the healthcare system is designed around “managed care” and the use of pharmaceutical products as opposed to any form of natural cures or disease prevention. There is no profit to Merck or the pharmaceutical industry by saying that various plants and herbs can ward off or even cure disease, so why would they publish that information? They wouldn’t. That would not be a smart business move. Couple this with a recent survey that found only 27% of U.S. medical schools currently meet the MINIMUM target of 25 hours set by the National Academy of Sciences for class time on nutrition, and you see that the issues with our healthcare system being compromised by pharmaceutical business interests starts at the fundamental level of the education of our medical professionals.


More and more people are beginning to feel that the medical industry does not have the best interests of them and their children as their top priority, resulting in what is being described by the press as a “generation of anti-vaxxers”. This has resulted in more and more people refusing to get their children vaccinated, which is not helping business at both Merck, who produces the vaccines and the CDC, who purchases the vaccines. All the talk about public safety and the rest of it aside, people not purchasing your product and calling not only its safety, but its effectiveness is BAD FOR BUSINESS.


Many folks in the general public really fail to see that the healthcare business is a business, and like any other corporation in this day and age, Merck is beholden to its shareholders to maximize its profits first and foremost. And let us not forget, that the CDC also has a bit of a stake in Merck’s financial success as well, and both are mutually hurt when the reputation of the other comes into question.

This is what happens when government agencies and large corporations become codependent in such a manner as has happened in the United States. If one falls, they both fall; and if the public loses its trust in confidence in the entity which would inevitably happen if any true wrongdoing was EVER admitted in the sphere of public health, then the WHOLE PUBLIC HEALTH SYSTEM COLLAPSES- and that is DEFINITELY bad for business.
So in this scenario, we can see the following:

1. A large multinational corporation with a legacy of working very closely with agencies within the U.S. government and a history of what could be considered “questionable” ethics. This same corporation has been seeing its profits fall over the past year, as well as continued headaches of lawsuits that have tarnished its reputation.

2. A large government agency with relational and financial ties to the aforementioned corporation. This agency also has a history of conflicts of interest within its workings. This agency has been troubled with whistleblowers that are tarnishing its credibility- something it ABSOLUTELY MUST PRESERVE in order to remain as any kind of authority.

3. A body of leading medical professionals in key positions of influence who have financial ties to the aforementioned pharmaceutical corporation as well as relational ties to the aforementioned government agency, and therefore a vested interest in the success and credibility of both. Any damage to the credibility of these organizations would be damage to the credibility of these individuals, which would be bad for their personal business.

4. A legion of healthcare professionals across the globe who have been educated that “good medicine” is equated with the interests of the pharmaceutical industry.

5. A growing number of people who no longer have faith in these corporations, agencies or individuals. This has resulted in these “non-believers” no longer purchasing the products or abiding by the policies that keep these various entities profitable and relevant.

So it appears we have a bit of a problem here, so we need a solution. Luckily, the dream that you wish can come true at Disneyland. We’re going to put aside speculation on how measles got to Disneyland for the time being and we’re going to look at what’s really important- the ABSOLUTE HYSTERIA that has been pushed on all sides of the media with this story. The immediate results of this have been a renewed fear and hysteria around what was once considered a relatively harmless childhood disease that was comparable in seriousness to chickenpox and FAR more rare.

There has also been a vaccination “believers” vs. “non-believers” divide, and a very serious and venomous persecution of “anti-vaxxers” that has gone so far as to call for legal action and imprisonment. Loud public shaming and name-calling is a classic tactic of shutting down any kind of rational debate. The reason for this is that the nature of the debate on the ground an emotional one, rather than one guided by logic, and this has to do with one word that is hammered over and over and over again- CHILDREN.


With the media and the pundit’s lead, the debate around the measles outbreak is about “the children”- vaccines being needed to “protect the children” and people who don’t vaccinate being ones who would “hurt” or even “kill” the children. This dialogue is DELIBERATE, and appeals to the base instinct of human beings to protect their young. This creates and a fearfully emotional and protective response that more often than not bypasses the regions of reason and logic- and no one ever makes good decisions from a fearful state of mind.

Ebola didn’t get this kind of frenzy, but then again there were no stories regarding American children coming down with or being potentially threatened by Ebola. But Ebola didn’t really have a vaccine to sell, and if you look across the airwaves, the pharmaceutical industry has a very strong presence on pretty much every channel. Regardless of whether you’re watching Fox News, MSNBC or CNN, the pharmaceutical industry is a unifying force in politics and news reporting like no other.

On the legislative level, we see state after state attempting to pass legislation making vaccination mandatory and exemptions for schools and public sector jobs near-impossible. It could be noted that Merck was on record of spending well over $6 million on lobbying both sides of the aisle in recent elections. We also see private institutions giving in to public pressure and hysteria generated by the media as daycares, amusement parks and various other businesses require employees to be vaccinated.

In Oregon, lawmakers are looking to require that parents get some kind of “education about vaccines” before they can refuse shots for school aged children. Legislators here are “very concerned” about the low vaccination rates happening here, even though last I checked ONE case had been reported so far in the state this year.

Washington, California, Michigan and Minnesota are looking at passing similar legislation, according to Diane Peterson, an associate director at the Immunization Action Coalition- a nonprofit launched in 2002 “with sole funding from the CDC” and a member of the Immunization Alliance, which was founded in 2008 to restore confidence among parents due to the vaccine controversy and the related controversies in autism- in other words a public relations or “PR” organization.

Essentially what we have here with this whole Disneyland measles scare is a MASSIVE PR STUNT designed to restore confidence in the medical authorities and sell their products. Let’s break this down again: Merck’s profits are falling, they’re being sued, their reputation is repeatedly being tarnished, and the public is not buying their products. The CDC is being marred in controversy and losing credibility as a reputable authority- which it needs in order to maintain funding and continue to have legitimacy as a government entity- and it has already paid for a bunch of vaccines that people aren’t taking.

So if you are Merck and the CDC how do you solve this problem? You manufacture and/or take advantage of a situation and create a crisis mentality in the population through the media; whipping them into a frenzy around disease and fear for their children’s lives. The “unbiased experts” now line up and espouse that the problem lies in people not vaccinating their children. At this point the CDC can re-establish itself as the reputable savior of public health and be the guiding light to a panicked public, directing the public that all they need to do to solve this problem is “get the vaccine”- the vaccine that Merck makes. This also allows pressure to be put on legislators to create legislation making vaccination mandatory, ensuring a steady long-term flow of income for Merck and Co.

This is what happens when you have the problem of “State-Sponsored Scientism”– which is dogmatic (rooted in belief and authority) scientific theory and practice that is anointed with legitimacy by the power and influence of the state and preached and followed like a religion.

As always, I encourage you to investigate any and all of these points on your own,  If any of this information conflicts of what you believe or feel you know to be true, then I encourage you to look into it even more.



“It’s not just about you. You’re part of a social order. You’ve got to make your own contribution to it. You can’t opt out… I think we should become increasingly intolerant of parents opting out… Why should we let parents opt out? Sorry. We’ve decided to go on the green and stop on red. And when anybody violates that, it causes chaos…”
– William Schaffner, MD.

The above quote is from Dr. William Schaffner, who was quoted extensively as an “expert” in a recent article on WebMD entitled, “Should Vaccination Be a Personal Choice?” As stated in the article, Schaffner is a professor of preventative medicine at Vanderbilt University in Nashville, TN. What wasn’t mentioned was that Dr. Schaffner serves as a paid consultant to numerous pharmaceutical giants, including Merck & Co. Schaffner also is a member of a data safety evaluation committee for experimental vaccines for that same company. So why does that matter? It’s good to have side jobs, right? Read on.


This article is one of many that have been written in the slurry of media frenzy surrounding the Disneyland measles outbreak like the article out of the London Guardian which announced: “Measles Outbreak Spreads in U.S. After Unvaccinated Woman Visits Disneyland” – This article explained how seven people in a Disneyland hotel came down with measles and concluded that the actual identity of patient zero (the original disease carrier) was in fact unknown.

Make no mistake about it, this is indeed happening because people aren’t getting themselves and their kids vaccinated- but not in the way you may think. So back to Merck or Merck Sharp and Dohme, as it is known internationally- Merck was founded originally as a German Company that moved to the U.S. and was later confiscated and re-established as an American company after World War I, and is one of the largest pharmaceutical companies in the world grossing $44 billion in 2013.

Merck has a legacy in the United States healthcare industry and is one of the most influential companies in American healthcare. It could be said that Merck wrote the book on healthcare- literally- the “Merck Manual of Diagnosis and Therapy” is the best-selling medical textbook in the world.

Merck Manual

This really begins under the leadership of George W. Merck., who was president of the company from 1925-1950. The overall influence of Merck was boosted greatly when George Merck led the War Research Service, which initiated the U.S. biological weapons program during World War II. U.S. Secretary of War (now Defense) Henry L. Stimpson initiated development of biological warfare research and development to counteract a perceived threat from other nations deemed as such. Stimpson sought out a civilian agency to spearhead this program because as he stated to President Roosevelt:

“Entrusting the matter to a civilian agency would help in preventing the public from being unduly exercised over any ideas that the War Department might be contemplating the use of this weaponry offensively.”

In a document entitled “Origins of the U.S. Biological Warfare Program” which was drawn from an article the author wrote for “Scientific American”, author Barton J. Bernstein explains how George W. Merck spearheaded a program in which major biologists and physicians initiated secret work in 28 major universities in the United States, focusing on study and development of things like Anthrax and botulism. The biological weapons program continued its “official” life until 1973 at the end of the Vietnam War, with Merck and Co. continuing its involvement. The list of ethically-questionable and downright atrocious actions perpetrated by this program on military personnel as well as civilians is well-documented.

origins of US biowarfare

bioweapons < Another PDF Document Regarding the U.S. Bioweaons Program

After merging with Philadelphia-based pharmaceutical company, Sharpe and Dohme, Inc., Merck became the largest drug manufacturer in the U.S. This also brought extensive marketing expertise, sales and distribution, as well as vaccine technology to Merck. In 1963 Merck, under the guidance of leading microbiologist Maurice Hilleman developed the MMR vaccine.

At the present time Merck is the SOLE producer of both measles vaccines that are administered to children across the United States and have a major market internationally. However, the past year has not been overly kind to this business giant or to the MMR vaccine. A recent article out of the Wall Street Journal states:

“Merck and Co.’s fourth-quarter sales declined on a stronger U.S. dollar and patent expirations for top drugs, while a weaker-than-expected 2015 outlook and new concerns over prospects for an experimental hepatitis C treatment weighed on Merck shares.”

The article went on to state: “Shares of Merck tumbled 3.5% to $58.88 in recent trading Wednesday… Sales in the quarter fell 7.4% to $10.48 billion from the year-earlier quarter, short of analysts’ estimates.”

An article out of CNBC was a little less subtle: “It has been a roller-coaster ride of a year for Merck, complete with M&A and corporate bloodletting intended to swing the company’s numbers northward…But slumping sales of some of its standout products, and an ongoing slide in profits, signal more work to come.”

Profit margins notwithstanding, Merck has also not been without its fair share of controversy in the past few years. Back in 2005 there was the issue where Merck was caught manufacturing a false “medical journal” specifically to advertise and give credibility to its products. The publication was the Australasian Journal of Bone and Joint Medicine, which only lasted for six issues before it was “outed”. The publication had the look of a peer-reviewed medical journal, but contained only reprinted or summarized articles—most of which presented data favorable to Merck products—that appeared to act solely as marketing tools with no disclosure of company sponsorship.

Below are 2 PDF Documents Detailing the Aforementioned Statements:

Merk Hires Fake Medical Journals For Trial

Alliance for Human Research Protection – Merck Paid Elsevier to Publish Phony Peer-Review Journal

In 2009, there was a bit of controversy when it was discovered that Merck along with the Schering-Plough Corporation had paid a collective $400,000 to fourteen university medical professors to promote a new cholesterol-lowering drug by delivering speeches to medical professionals and attending advisory meetings. It was later found that this drug, while raking in 7 billion dollars in sales had little to no value to most patients.

doctors < PDF Document entitled “Financial Conflicts of Interest in Medicine”

Then in 2010, two virologists that worked for Merck filed a federal lawsuit against their former employer under the False Claims Act, alleging the company lied about the effectiveness of their MMR vaccine. It has also come out recently that Merck senior management attempted to pay off its own vaccine scientists to remain silent about the fraud.


Chatham Primary Care in North Carolina also sued Merck stating that the company had known for a decade that its MMR vaccine is far less effective than the 95% that it tells the government it is. Merck needs to maintain this “95% efficacy” claim in order to maintain its status as the only manufacturer licensed by the FDA to sell the MMR vaccine in the U.S. The suit is still ongoing.

This isn’t the first time that Merck has had some issues surrounding one of its vaccines. Between 1955 and 1961 Merck developed a polio vaccine using kidney cells from African rhesus monkeys. It was later discovered that these monkeys contained what became known as the SV40 virus, even though it was dormant in them. This virus has been admittedly linked to various forms of cancers and immunodeficiency diseases that were unknown before the 1970s. And while most new versions of the vaccines did not contain this virus, it was known by some in the medical communities that some older batches were in circulation among certain populations until quite recently.


The virus was named for the effect it had on African green monkey cells. The complete viral genome was sequenced in 1978 through the work of Maurice Hilleman and others. A taped interview of Dr. Hilleman reveals that this polio vaccine created a snowball effect:

Dr. Edward Shorter: Tell me how you found SV40 and the polio vaccine.

Dr. Maurice Hilleman: Well, that was at Merck. Yeah, I came to Merck. And uh, I was going to develop vaccines. And we had wild viruses in those days. You remember the wild monkey kidney viruses and so forth? And I finally after 6 months gave up and said that you cannot develop vaccines with these damn monkeys, we’re finished and if I can’t do something I’m going to quit, I’m not going to try it. So I went down to see Bill Mann at the zoo in Washington DC and I told Bill Mann, I said “look, I got a problem and I don’t know what the hell to do.” Bill Mann is a real bright guy. I said that these lousy monkeys are picking it up while being stored in the airports in transit, loading, off loading. He said, very simply, you go ahead and get your monkeys out of West Africa and get the African Green, bring them into Madrid unload them there, there is no other traffic there for animals, fly them into Philadelphia and pick them up. Or fly them into New York and pick them up, right off the airplane. So we brought African Greens in and I didn’t know we were importing the AIDS virus at the time.

CDCSV40 < Documentation from the CDC Regarding the SV40 Virus

CDC&SV40 < Documentation about the SV40 Virus in the Polio Vaccine

It should also be noted that MANY people who received the polio vaccine also contracted what was called a “polio-like illness” later on. It was also found that exposure to things like radiation will trigger the SV40 cancer virus to become active in humans later in life. The CDC recently admitted the link between the polio vaccine, SV40 and cancer on its web site and that millions may have been affected. However the CDC has apparently since removed that statement.


The CDC has been having headaches of its own recently as well. This past summer, there was a raging scandal at the CDC (Center for Disease Control) that didn’t get much play in the mainstream media. It centered round a chemical and biotech engineer and researcher out of Batelle/Pacific NW National Laboratory in Richland, WA named Brian Hooker and his numerous dialogues with a CDC scientist and researcher by the name of Dr. William S. Thompson. Thompson had worked on a report for the CDC’s National Immunization Program investigating the link between the MMR vaccine and autism back in 2004.


After being in contact with Dr. Thompson and others back in 2002-2003, Hooker was told by the CDC in 2004 that he could no longer contact CDC scientists due to his son being in the National Vaccine Injury Compensation Program, stating he was “suing the CDC”. This was an untrue statement as the NVICP is a “no fault” program. Legislation was passed during the Regan administration stating that the manufacturers and administrators could not be faulted due to any injuries or deaths occurring from a vaccination.

After years of veritable silence, Hooker was contacted out of the blue by Dr. Thompson. They spoke in a series of recorded conversations over a period of 10 months in which Dr. Thompson laid out what Hooker described as “gross malfeasance and out and out fraud in the CDC”. Thompson began by informing Hooker of other ways he could access CDC data and studies of vaccines and autism.

Thompson coached Hooker in how to analyze the data, and when compelling data points came up showing that the link had indeed been hidden, Thompson would describe HOW it had been hidden. Dr. Thompson stated that the CDC had found the same relationship Hooker had from his scientific analysis, but instead of making it public, they would use “dubious” statistical methods to make it “go away”, or would out and out cover up the relationship.

Specifically a study was done in 2004 among African-American males in the Atlanta area in 2004. The findings of the study showed a direct correlation between the timing of the first MMR shot and autism in these children. Dr. Thompson was one of the authors of this study and he found these correlations and took them to his superiors. At this point he was specifically told to break protocol and do what he could do to dilute the statistics so the report would not show this relationship. One of the ways this was done by “disqualifying” children who did not have what were considered “valid” birth certificates. This caused the pool of subjects to shrink, causing the data and the correlation to be far less conclusive.

cdc autism study

Dr. Thompson also told Hooker of other instances where he had received “top-down” pressure to skew and cover-up data around thimerosol, the mercury-based preservative that was in the MMR vaccine until recently (it is still in many versions of the flu shot). Due to this continuous data manipulation at the CDC, research on autism had been set back by about a decade.

So why was there such pressure at the CDC to cover this up? Dr. Thompson explained to Hooker that the CDC had a very gross conflict of interest due to the fact that the majority of the vaccines in the U.S. are bought by the CDC directly from the vaccine manufacturer and distributes them to the state public health department. In the case of the MMR vaccine, that manufacturer is Merck.


Thompson described the top-down pressure to manipulate data came from as high up as the president of the CDC, who at that time was Dr. Julie Gerberding. Dr. Gerberding was the head of the CDC from 2001 to 2009. After resigning she went on to become the president of Merck and Co.’s Vaccine Production Division. Dr. Thompson stated that having doctors go between the agency and the pharmaceutical industry was commonplace at the CDC.

Below is PDF Documentation Displaying Gerberding’s Positition at Merck:


FINAL Remarks by Julie Gerberding

The debate surrounding the measles outbreak has had a very emotional and simplistic dialogue dividing people who vaccinate their children against people who do not.  We also tend to view medial science as this pure and incorruptible institution, run by people with a Christ-like standard of ethics.  But as we are beginning to see, there may be much more than meets the eye to this story and that the motivation for all of this measles hysteria may very well not be the well-being of the children.

As we move forward in this, continually ask yourself, “Who REALLY benefits from all of this?  And why is such a push happening NOW for everyone and their mom to buy a product to prevent what is not generally a fatal disease?”

As always, I have done my best to provide documentation and references for the above statements.  I encourage folks to do their own research on this issue as well, and encourage feedback.  Namaste.



“Do not be ignorant of me.
For I am the first and the last.
I am the honored one and the scorned one.
I am the whore and the holy one.
I am the wife and the virgin.
I am the mother and the daughter.”
– The Thunder: Perfect Mind- Nag Hammadi Text

Many folks know the time around the 2nd of February to be that time of year when the magic rodent predicts whether or not there will be a long winter, based upon whether or not he is afraid of his own shadow (and he typically is). This time is also the time where what has been known as “Candlemas” or “The Feast of the Purification of the Virgin”- this latter name has been since replaced by the title, “The Feast of Presentation of the Lord” which was named after the revisions the Catholic Church went under in the Second Vatican Council.

This was a time when a priest would bless beeswax candles for people to use in their homes. Interestingly in Poland, the holy day is called “The Feast of Our Lady of the Thunder Candles”. This name refers to the candles that are blessed on this day, as these candles are lit during thunder storms and placed in windows to ward off storms.

The Feast of the Purification of the Virgin dealt with Mary going to the temple for what was a post-childbirth purification or cleansing ritual which was customary. This element was de-emphasized in favor of making the holiday more about Jesus and less about Mary.


In Ireland and Scotland, where my ancestry lies, this holiday is known as St. Brigit’s day. St. Brigit is known in Irish Catholicism as a sort of foster mother to Jesus, and a relative-friend to Mary. However, Birgit is actually an ancient goddess of the Celtic and pre-Celtic goddess of the Isles and mainland Europe. In efforts to spread Christianity across Europe, the church would often “Christianize” the various deities and customs of the peoples they were looking to convert.

This feast that typically falls right around the first couple days of February was/is known among Celtic peoples as “Imbolc”, also spelled Oimelc or Oimelg. This was the time when the ancients knew, that although the winter was still in full force, the days were getting longer and the Sun, that giver of life, was going to return to its prominence. This time of the year the ewes give birth to baby lambs, giving these ancient peoples the promise of cheese and milk and other things that brightened the cold winter.

This was a time to celebrate the coming rebirth and strengthening of life energy. The ancient myths depict the hag of Samhain transforming into the spring maiden. This maiden was understood to be Brigit, patron of healing, craft, and creative inspiration. The rituals done to celebrate this time were largely spearheaded by women and involved the home and the hearth.


The fire of Brigit is the fire of life and the fire of purification. This is a time to remember the seed that germinates in darkness before it can grow and bloom in the light. We nurture the parts of ourselves that are not yet fully developed during this time. This is the time for internal healing and developing new creative pathways and ventures before bringing them into “full bloom”. Again, we remember that humankind works best when it works with the flow and forces of nature.

Brigit is known to be one and the same with the primordial goddess Danu, known by the ancient peoples of the “Blessed Isles” as the first Mother of All. In the traditions that arose out of the Hellenistic (ancient Greek) world, this mother of all was known as Sophia. Sophia was a dualistic being. The “Higher Sophia” is the eternal virgin, who is unmoving and unchanging- always in perfection. The “Lower Sophia” is her as the fallen goddess who incarnates into the material world.

The classic story of Sophia shows her to be a fallen goddess who left the eternal realm of her Father and became a physical being. In this world, she gave of herself to many longing for love. She is sad, desperate and alone. Seeing her being used and abused, her Father presents himself to her and tells her he is sending her brother, her true love, coming to unite with her. Finally she is saved by her brother (who is also her lover), the Christos and the Divine Wedding takes place.


In this story, Sophia is understood to represent the psyche and Christ is understood to represent Consciousness. Sophia’s fall represents the psyche or soul’s incarnation and association with the physical body and the physical world, leaving the primordial oneness of its true home- the place where all things emanate from and return to. Her being used and abused by many lovers represents how we look outside ourselves for love and happiness, only to be left feeling empty.

The appearance of the Father in her time of abject loneliness represents the divine grace that can happen when we are at our lowest. Her father sends her brother, who is her true love- her “soul-mate”. We are not truly talking about an incestuous relationship here, we are talking about the higher consciousness that comes to save the psyche and reunite with it, forming the Divine Union- the fully integrated and spiritually awakened human. As these are both aspects of our own being, they are described as being “related”.

This is the “Feast of the Purification”- the purification of the subconscious. We seek to heal and integrate the disparate elements of our subconscious mind and bring it into harmony with the Higher Consciousness- Her eternal lover.


The Divine Feminine is the subconscious, receptive aspect of our being which takes the seed of the conscious thinking mind. The Divine Feminine is also the one who “gives birth” to the higher Christ consciousness. In Christianity, this principle is represented in the figure of Mary, the mother of Jesus. The lover is represented as the redeemed prostitute who became Mary, the closest disciple of Jesus. It is no coincidence that both of these women are named Mary in this story, as they are both aspects of the same figure.

The Divine Feminine or primordial Goddess, is an extremely complex figure as can be gleaned from the excerpt from the Nag Hammadi texts that opened this blog posting. This complexity is part of the reason why references to Her have been systematically done away with in the major patriarchal religions. There has been a war on the Divine Feminine for millennia, and it has had many casualties, not least of which is the fragmented nature of the modern human being.

The Hermetic Principle of Gender states that “Gender is in everything; everything has its Masculine and Feminine Principles; Gender manifests on all planes.”

This can be seen throughout the natural world all the way to the human genome. All things have an active masculine component and a receptive feminine component. This principle plays out in all things- even the Goddess has the male aspect of herself. To deny or attempt to suppress either component, or to declare supremacy of one over the other, is to the detriment of the sole individual and the collective of individuals.


I see this time of year as a time to do some healing work of my deep psyche and to reconnect with the Divine Feminine aspect of my being. I work to see the Divine Feminine all around me in all life. I see it in our Mother Earth and her sister, the Moon. I see it in the plants and animals. I see it in the raw creative potential that resides in humankind. The Great Mother extends herself throughout all of Creation, beckoning to us to answer Her calling and get to know Her a little better. Goddess is the Love, God is the Light, and their Divine Child is the Life.

The mysteries of the Goddess and the purification of the psyche as she reunites with the God- the Christ- are food for a lifetime of contemplation. I invite you to meditate, reflect, and journey deep within yourselves to discover Her for yourselves if you have not already done so. It is the Great Mother who brought me to the path of spiritual work I have been on for so many years now. I seek to love her and know her. And as I grow to understand Her, I understand that I AM Her, as I journey within my being and join with my beloved, the Christ Self within.

Christ the Sophia, Holy Bride, we call upon you.
We praise you and we Bless your Holy Name
We invoke you in your Sevenfold Glory
Come among us, and be with us
Dwell among us and walk with us
Teach and initiate us and guide us
Empower us to bring Mother and Daughter into union
That we might put on the power of the Blessed Name
And shine with the Light of the Spiritual Sun
Let your mystical embrace with Christ the Logos Be fulfilled in us