Step 6: Were entirely ready to surrender our character defects and erroneous beliefs to the Active Force of Creation (Holy Spirit, God, Goddess, etc.) as we understood It.
Having gone through the “inferno” of steps 4 and 5, we now find ourselves again to a point of surrender. By this time we have recognized the “Root of Evil” within us- the underlying causal factors of why we think, feel, and act in ways that ultimately hurt ourselves and others, keeping us in a state of perpetual bondage. Now the question is, “Am I truly ready to let these things go?”
For many of us, our character defects are the “old familiar face” we can always count on to pop in. We become comforted by them, like an old shirt that we can’t bear to throw away, even if it is in tatters. We associate with our character defects as being an inherent part of “who we are”. We identify with them, and feel they are part and parcel with what makes us “special” and “unique”- what makes us “who we are”. This is nothing more than an illusion created by our finite mind, or “ego”. To put it bluntly, it is a lie.
As we move through the process, we begin to recognize the lies we have told ourselves and continue to tell ourselves, and seek to move toward truth. Truth can be uncomfortable and painful at times, but it is REAL. When we are ready to let go of lies, we are ready to move into truth in a full and real way.
But in order for this process of surrender to happen in any sort of complete manner, we have to BELIEVE it is possible. These elements of our ego have become very comfortable “ruling the roost”, as it would be, and are not just going to leave without putting up a fight. This is where our relationship with our Higher Self/Power comes into the picture.
We have (hopefully) already come to the realization that the will of our finite ego is not enough to create real and lasting change within us. We need to tap into the limitless potential of our Higher Mind- the Divine Spark within and the correlating Infinite Power that surrounds us. It is only through reaching to this Power that we can be given the keys to unlock our limitless potential for growth and transformation. But in order for any of this to happen, we have to first BELIEVE it can, and I can say from personal experience that it can sound a lot easier than it is.
When we become so used to living in a state of fear, anxiety and hopelessness, it can be incredibly hard to “unlearn” that state of mind. When we let life’s disappointments and our own perceived failures get the better of us, we can fool ourselves into believing that things will “always be this way”. Even though we may believe in a Higher Power, we may not believe that even He could help us, or if He could, we really don’t deserve His help.
This is where I found myself. I knew where I was. I knew how I got there and where I wanted to go. But I didn’t believe God could get me there because I didn’t feel I deserved it. It took me a while to realize that was the mental prison I was creating for myself, and I pray each day, often multiple times throughout the day, for guidance out of that prison.
“It is the Father’s good pleasure to give us the Kingdom.”
We are all Divine Children of the Living God. We all deserve the Kingdom of Heaven that dwells within us, which we can in turn, make manifest in the world around us. When we believe this is possible and believe we are worth it, the freedom we ultimately seek can become reality. Until next time, Namaste and God Bless.